God im such a loser. I cant keep a conversation to save my life. They aren’t fulfilling not are they interesting and I want to cry so bad because our topics were superficial and brief. I hate the way I respond, and I hate how I have to say “huh” over and over because I cant hear them, I bet it annoys them. I bet they don’t want to talk to me ever again because I call everything cringe and because I can’t have emotionally intimate conversations with anyone. I don’t know how to hang the phone up either. I asked them when they were going to sleep and they wanted to continue our conversation. We would have intervals of time where we wouldn’t talk, and he said he was just “chilling” but was he?, he was probably bored. He then told me that he was a little sleepy and so I told him I was sleepy too so that we could hang up. And the way I hung up was so harsh I think. He said “night” and I said “bye” and hung up immediately, what if he wanted to say more? Am I making him feel bad? That’s not my intention! I do want to talk to him everyday for several hours at a time. But I cant hold conversations, I hate the way I respond, I hate my brief answers, and the awkward silence. If we are calling its because you want to talk, no? Maybe I’m just overthinking, but i just want to be a good conversationalist. I don’t want people to get bored of me and then never speak to me again.