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I can’t wait for the day that this leash is gone from my neck. I sleep my life away, because when I am awake there is nothing to do, nowhere to go. I’d rather sleep because that way, time goes by quicker, and I don’t feel bored all the time. I can’t wait for when…

I kinda put off telling you this, but it’s starting to feel like last time again. You distance yourself, I distance myself in response to your distance bc I’m not going to beg someone for attention or to talk to me when they don’t want to, I have a lot of self respect and I…

I feel so lonely even in a room full of people. And it’s so ironic, because I always want space. It’s stupid that I complain about feeling lonely but space is what I need and what helps me whenever I feel neglected. And I feel like everything around me is all just so superficial. And…

Even though I last saw you 3 or 4 years ago, I can’t help but flinch at the sound of your name. And it makes me think how, if it hadn’t all been messed up, I would still know you and you me. Often times, I think that you were the only person for me.…

Wow, I prepared myself emotionally just for you to cancel and postpone. I hate you.

Now that I have what I wanted, I don’t think I want it anymore.

I hated how todays conversation ended. I could’ve said more and reassured you, but at the same time I felt like you wanted to hang up anyway so I went along with it. I’m sorry I didn’t say good night like you did, I feel like saying good night is much more intimate than a…

God im such a loser. I cant keep a conversation to save my life. They aren’t fulfilling not are they interesting and I want to cry so bad because our topics were superficial and brief. I hate the way I respond, and I hate how I have to say “huh” over and over because I…